Some of you may not realize that I used to be a skinny thing. Back in high school I weighed all of 120 pounds. College and life afterward changed that.
Back in winter of '08 to '09, while J was away at OCS, I started dieting. It wasn't any kind of fad diet, I just counted calories, fat, carbs, and protein. I also was a member at Jazzercise, which I still miss a little. I lost 20 pounds while he was away. I was down from 180 to 160. Then we moved, and I somehow wasn't able to keep it up. It was easy when I was just feeding myself, but when I started cooking for both of us again, it all went to shight. It didn't help that the Jazzercise clubs down here are ridonkulous about their schedules, so I didn't keep that up.
I did start running last year, but kept hurting my ankle. I have a love/hate relationship with running now.
Now that we are living on post, I have put 15 pounds back on. Not good. And I have no willpower when it comes to food. But I'm trying to change all that.
I walk my dog for at least half an hour every morning. I have been going to the pool a block away sporadically, and I'm going to try to make it more regular. My goal right now is 2 days a week but I will push for 3. I've also told myself that I will start running by myself, without the dog, at least once a week.
Ok, so fitness is in there. Now food. I'm reading a book called The Four Day Win: End Your Diet War and Achieve Thinner Peace by Martha Beck. It's all about changing the way you think, with the way you eat changing as more of a side effect. I'm enjoying it so far, but it does take work. She has little 4 Day Wins throughout the book that you do. Little exercises. So sometimes I have to just put the book down for 4 days while I do an exercise. And it's changing more than my food thinking; I'm getting tips on how to lead a happier, less stressful life in general. Learned a great technique to calm myself when I get anxious, and I do get anxious more than most people realize.
So, this is what I am currently working on in my life. At least, this is the big thing. I want to lose weight in a healthy way. I don't care to be down to 120 pounds again, but 140 would be amazing. At this point, I just want to get back down to 160! But I'm taking the slower route. I'm going to work on myself as a whole and try to be happy with my life as it is, and as I am, at this moment.